CNY's coming.
New color walls; Wipe the thick dust away; CNY's decoration all around.

My house is so messy now.
Dad's painting the house, with the help of my brothers.
DIY!
but it will be just plain colors; no patterns around.
I like white!
Make the house looks bigger & brighter.

Now, I don't feel like going home.
It's so messy.
Things are all shifted to the center of the house.

to make me feel worse,
some of shoes sandals and slipper are splitted with tiny spots of paint.
my favourite pair of havaianas has a new look :(
and i have to bear with the white pair, which is turning yellowish.
arghhhhhhh!

2 more projects to go.
it's all about computer and computer for now.
and it will be all about books after that.

next Tuesday, al presentations will be over and done with!
yayness!

Prata for breakfast with my dearest, and he walking me to school.
It just brightens up my day. (;

much love, baby!

idon'tlikesundays

even before any of my papers start, i'm looking forward to the holidays. i have so many things to do then. needless to say, i have tons to do now. ;(

baby,
i know Sundays are reserved for soccer and WGM, and it's schoolwork for me. i always feel reluctant to leave your place on Sundays. I know we will not meetup only till Wednesdays, or worse, only during the weekends. blah blah blah .. i don't know what to say anymore.

nevermind about this entry.

I was at Liquid Kitchen just now with Man, Ruz and Desmond, after dinner at Prata House with Yani. I was feeling terrible the whole day, and asked them to accompany me for some drinks. I'm feeling the stress in within me, the feeling undescribe-able. When they asked me,"Why are you feeling this way?" I will just answer them,"It's about schoolwork." And is this really the only reason why i'm feeling this way? I have never felt this way before, never even when i'm doing my major examinations. A bad news came, many of you will be surprised and say that i'm childish whatsoever. But, i've the tendency to pick up smoking. I know that i'll be guilty for doing this, and even for the people around me. They never expect me to do this, never. You can't do this, Clara! That was what hit me onto my head real hard. The problem lies with me. Where is my time management? Where is my determination? I'm feeling so lost. I know I have to get this over and done with. I will !



Apart from this feeling i was having, or in fact, still having it, i did enjoy myself with my classmates today at NYP Open House and Hady Mirza Concert at NYP.

Toodles!

Catch me again tmr at the Open House. ;)

It's such a pain in the ass how you're treating others. Oh man, get a life, little girl !

sometimes it really keeps me wondering if others appreciate me for what i have done or am doing. and i realized that i don't have to do much for them. cos no matter what i say, they still have a mindset of their own. if they're stubborn, they will always be. and from today onwards, i will just give advices to those who ask me about my opinion(s), and the action will be up to them. cos i found that i've somehow wasted my breath on those who don't hit my advise, and turn out receiving the negative result.

i have no idea why i suddenly thought of this, but yes .. i've promised to be a better me. my 2007 resolution. ;)

last night, i went to bed as early as 10pm. i had to sleep early to have sufficient amount of rest to start off another hectic week. not a bad start of the week. Japanese e-Quiz and role play turned out fine.

my blog will be my best friend for now. here is where i can pour everything outta me. i wanna lock myself inside my room for 24/7 for now. Wash up, do my work, eat and sleep in the room. I don't wanna leave the room. i can see the word 'stress' everywhere, almost every blog that i pass by. i have so many many many many many to do !!! ;(

headache strikes onto me.

my pillar of support. <3

Was feeling horrible this afternoon. I can't help it but kept throwing things around the room and started to shout at whoever talked to me. This feeling always hit onto me when i'm so stressed up.

let's talk about the happy things in life.

I've been looking forward to this weekend. I swear i had never been so excited for the weekends. Yesterday, had lessons till 3pm and project meeting aftermath till around 4+pm. Headed down to Junction8 to catch the girls, Clara & Kejia. I miss them loads. I'm happy that our bond is there despite the less meet up sessions. The 7th year of friendship .. I cherish more than anything else. <3> Taka > Fareast Plaza > Selegie > home .

YES, I DIGGED THE WHOLE OF TAKASHIMAYA DEPARTMENT STORE. I took the items into my arms like a happy girl. I love that feeling !

Only at Taka, I bought ..

-a file
-a notepad
-a post-it
-2 coasters
-3 cup covers
-a clip for my pass
-scissor
-6 pens
-a laptop cover
-stickers
-correction tape
-cute paper clips
-a photo clip (with beautiful lips)
for both school & my desk at the office.

Went to Zara, and got myself a black skirt for my presentation.

At fareast, I only bought a white belt for my CNY dress. My boy was able to stop me from buying when he said,"I need to do some shopping too. Buy when we go shopping together." Haha, so i was like .. "Ya, maybe can find something better la."

With all these shopping, I still have not got everything that I want. And so, my boy told me,"Get what you need and not scarifice your wants." Ah, hard la. Girls are like that, right?

At Selegie, we went to Mr. Bean cafe. Nice atmosphere. Wanted to go over Mind Cafe, but it was fully occupied. There's a hotspot there. We managed to sign up with Singnet and use the Wireless@Sg. Cool!

Headed back to my boy's home at around 12am.

Okay, today wasn't great a bit at all. Woke up > read newspaper > Compass point for lunch > Nap > Dinner at Koufu Puggol with his parents. Here I am. Going to face my books.

My bad for today is a Beer shampoo, Henna conditioner and a Simple toner from Watsons. ); see what i mean? I can't live without shopping.

Update of pictures.

Picture shot by Law. He's a romance freak. LOL! In Drew's car, heading down to Zouk from Taboo.

Drew at Thai Express.
Me at Thai Express. Taken by Law.
Law & Drew at Taboo.

am feeling so f up now.
it just spoilt my whole weekend.
f-hagslnciwvysnlsca!

Pictures to end this entry. Toodless!

doing Econs project meeting.

me, at the class chalet.

Law, last night a Taboo.

to the end of the night. looking so tired; trying hard to smile.

i have been adding a few posts in a day. and that's because i'm too bored of studying.

now, i'm here again. i need to rest my eyes. have been working on the Econs graphs since 6:30pm till now. let my eyes rest man !

while coloring the graphs, i was watching The Arena. they were debating on the issue about being self-centered. it led me into deep thoughts if i have been self-centered with my actions all these years in life. some yes, some no.

are you self-centered? *think it through*

when semestral exams are approaching, the feeling's the worst. have to rush through projects and also study at the same time. of 'cos, i've been missing out all the parties. till 1st of March, i will be free. i can't wait to work everyday to earn more money. that's when i become the happiest girl in the world. HAHAA!

again, i gonna leave here for now.
catch me on tv on Channel 8 on Thursday, 8pm.
I'm going to Mediacorp tmr for the shooting of Project Superstar2.

oh ya, i better call Adrian now to help him on his accounting questions. i almost forgot!

Starhub's selfish. my brother did not pay an outstanding of $6 for the Wireless broadband connection, thus they suspended the account. that's why i couldn't connect to the wireless since last night. MADNESS! it's only 6bucks. oh .. come on ! and so, they reconnected it back for me.

now, i can update properly, need not rush. ;)

life's been full of ups and downs. epecially when i'm attached. shits do happen (don't act smart! i did not have a tiff with my boyfriend.). as a tertiary student, i have to learn to be independent and responsible, getting ready to go out to the society. now that i have to work part-time and study full-time, i will be worn out every day. though i chose to work part-time myself, as my mother didn't like this idea at all (except for my dad, who has been asking me to get a job.), i have to learn to juggle both of these together. noone is gonna spoon feed me anymore. if not, i will take things for granted. which i have been while being 'jobless' for the past 3 months.

okay, now i feel much motivated ! ;)

am currently listening to Hilary Duff's song entitled 'Someone's watching over me'. it reminds me of my secondary school days. when i stayed over at Nat's place to watch a DVD (i can't remember the title of the movie) which has this song as the main soundtrack. this causes me to miss the girls dearly! fear not, i will be working with 2 of them. and Yani, we'll meetup for more prata-ing sessions. lovelove!

okay, i better get going.

the feeling's terrible without an internet connection at home. i can't even do my work and communicate with my classmates about project, don't even talk about blogging. the modem is crashed somehow, and i don't know when will it be replaced by a new one. have to wait for my brother to come back from his Bangkok trip.

stayed over my boy's place from Friday to Sunday. and it was all about slacking around and doing nothing. have to save money. ;(

currently in school, having Management tutorial at the moment. have to check my mail and all, and do my project at hom without an internet connection. i hope there's a wireless network which is not secured when i'm at home. ho-ho!

now, i needa concentrate on the tutorial.
ciaos.

i was supposed to be studying for tmr's stats paper. i will do it after this entry.

Rahman came to chat with me, sending me a request for webcam. And i got excited! HAHA.

Hello! what are you trying to do? He was testing out his new webcam with all the graphics that can be displayed on the screen. freaking funny!

I better go off now. Luckily tmr's lesson only start at 2pm. ;)

i became obsessed with orange, out of a sudden.
i still love red.
i felt the previous skin kinda ... i don't know how to describe.

enjoy your stay here. ;)

*i'm thinking if i should add a tagboard.

the girls are at Zouk.
i have stats paper tmr. :(

ciaos!

the interview went fine. training is starting this Friday. when i get my pay, more shopping sprees (than usual). okay, i know i have to save money. i will! ;)

i was listening to class95 a few nights back. and i remembered the night when i called my boy (before we were together), and asked him to tune in too. i love the love songs they play on air, especially during the night. when things are more or less at peace, love songs soothes your feeling at the same time. and i turned emo that very night. unfortunately, i missed the song he dedicated to me. by the time the DJ read out his dedication, i wasn't tuning in. little things like this makes me go la-la over you. *big hugs*

soon ... i will have a space for 'my wants'. it isn't more to 'my needs'. (sound so "economic-cially")

a hectic period for school when all projects and tests keep coming all at the same time. (luckily, none of the papers clash with one another.) i can't deny i suck big time when it comes to meeting deadlines. i'm so used to being a last-minute-then-rush- through-my-work person and now you tell me about time management. ho-ho! but still, i will try my very best. (remember my new year resolution - give in my best shot while doing everything/anything)

on the other hand, i need cash, cash and more cash. i have been jobless for three months. and i hate it. no job = no cash = no shopping. who can live without shopping? okay, maybe you can, but not me certainly! i even shopped till my boyfriend asked me,"it's a must for you to shop every week ah? if don't shop this week, you will go for more shopping next week, right?". okay, blacklisted already. haha. but which girl can live without shopping, seriously? also, shopping therapy does help in stress-relieving. so, why not?! haha.

therefore, i'm looking up and down for jobs. i desperately need one. (any to introduce?) am going for an interview tmr. good pay and incentives! hope it goes well.

though my schedule will be so cramp, i will still have to live with this. daddy has been bugging me to get a job. he even asked me to work at coffee shop la. can you imagine?! and i'm feeling bad too. using my parents money for shopping. this is a no-no to me. i never take money from them ever since after Os. sadly, because of the sucky company which didn't inform me about them having enough manpower, i did not go job hunting earlier before they told me that. and now ... financial problem for myself.

as for today, i was late for tutorial. my boy stayed over my place last night and both of us were too tired after school and work, and slept through the alarm. woke up at 8:30am when he has to be at office at 8:30am and i have to be in school at 9am. *boo-hoo*

my brother is going bangkok for a week. any idea what to get from there?

oh ya, talking about overseas trip. i have never been on a plane before. okay, 'L' for LOSER. and i wonder how it feels like. many told me that it's the same as sitting in a coach. except that it's flying in the sky. and that makes me more curious. will i feel like i'm in a roller-coaster? lol, i sound so silly.

and wonder why am i not having a nap? (when usually i will be taking a nap after school.) 'cos i wanna go to bed early tonight. yesyesyes .. so rare!

i wanna kill that zit above my lips. it's painful!

till then,
tug in early with me! ;)

Friday to Sunday was BI0606 class chalet at Pasir Ris Coasta Sands Resort. Headed down on Friday after lessons. The first night was only BBQ and 5-10 games (along with a lil' of liquor). Adrian came down to meet me at around 10pm. And that's when the talks began, about school, relationship, friendship and family. That was the first time I talked so much with him, and i didn't know we could actually do this, though i have known you for the 7th year.

Ad, study hard and strive for your future. All the best. We'll meet up again. (: Thanks for every pieces of your advice and blessings!

I slept the longest in the chalet. I was feeling tired halfway through the lessons on Friday, and that explains why i can't stay up till the sun rises. Got waken up with the rest at 11am. Headed for breakfast over Downtown East, and decided to go Wild Wild Wet after breakfast. Sadly, i did not got my tan. The sun wasn't as strong as I thought it will be, since it's in the afternoon when the sun will usually be the strongest of the day.

Aftermath, i left the chalet after having a good shower. Met my boy at Tampines Mall. 'HELLO, boyfriend. you made me wait for you always. can you please be punctual the next time round?' dinner at Pastamania and caught Night at The Museum. (it's good man!)

As for today, waken by him for breakfast, as i stayed over his place last night. Being lacked of sleep, I went back to bed after eating, all the way till 3:30pm. Bathed and got ready to leave his place, and headed home while he went to have a meeting with the boys.

drian told me that night,"It doesn't matter how you guys met. It's the middle process that is important".

I like to have good chats with you face to face. It's the time when we get to know each other deeper and shower each other with love. Knowing each other's situations, we'll pull through this path together. Without hardships, we wouldn't be able to learn nor succeed. From the bottom of my heart, i love you baby, and you know that. <3















Bosong(my boyfriend look alike), me and SoonWee @ chalet.

it's the 3rd day of the brand new year. this entry came a little late, sorry. so looking at the pictures, archives, and remembering some of the wonderful moments spent, 2006 has been a great year. leaving them all behind, lets hope 2007 will be a better year. new year resolutions? i have not accomplished any of them in 2006. and i can't be bothered to think of any this year. everything i do, i will give in my best shot. thru' the ups and downs, i have learnt along the way. fell and stand on my feet once again. many people stepped into my life, and some had left. for those who have left, i thank you very much for those happy times. (: for those who're still there for me, you're my angels. (especially clara & kejia, yani & nat & gerri)

for the every year, i really sat down and thought of the past. i'm deleting all the pictures, that aren't worth keeping.

i'm moving on, and cherishing whatever i have in my hands. i'm gonna make my wish come through. (that goes to you'al. may all your wishes come true! ;p )

now, let's look forward to the year ahead.

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please do not rain tmr.
i wanna swim and get a tan.

i miss LCHK!!!

Welcome 2007, with our wide opened arms filled with love, joy and laughters!

Potluck over at Malvin's place.

So my boy and I had no idea what to bring. And suggested a Swensens' Ice-cream cake. Since everyone's bringing main-courses & side-dishes, we'll bring deserts.

*no pictures. 'cos we were all too busy chit-chatting & having fun. HA!

Played Taboo & Indian Poker. The punishment was to drink Martell/Vodka with green tea mixer. So i lose a few times. Couldn't take the amount of alcohol, since i drank a lot on last Wednesday, amazingly, the effect hasn't gone away. yes, i'm acting not like me these days. i have no idea why is this feeling always attacking me. sucky! as a result, I knock-out half way thru' on Malvin's bed. and also, I kept tearing last night over at my boy's place. he must be thinking,"what is this silly girl thinking?" HAHA. poor boyfriend.

The girls were out at St James. Sorry , girls. Meet up another day! <3

New year, new beginnings.
I can't be bothered to think about the past.
Leave it all behind, and start afresh!

Hugs, lovelies!